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January 26th, 2006

09:40 pm - This is the "GREATEST DAY" EVER!! OH! MY GOSH!!!! I swear today was the most fuckin UNBELIEVEABLE DAY EVER!!! My day totally didn't start off well... I was stuck in traffic, late for my meeting to "prep" for my interview... then from there... was still fuckin stuck in traffic and was late for my interview. I make it there like ten minutes late... and it turns out that position I was originally supposed to interview for... was FUCKIN filled... So, im sitting there thinking... "Great... well, it's ok... I'll just keep lookin" Then, the HR manager comes up to me and says, "Well, I apologize for that, but according to your resume, you seem to have both supervisor and HR experience..." I replied, "well, yes, I do, I originally wanted an HR position, but I would settle for either position that came available." The HR lady says, "Well, I have an HR position open and I wanted to know if you would like to interview for it?" I said, "sure!" Time goes by... and the interview went so well... We exchanged ideas... had a conversation... and it just overall went well. At the end of the interview, the HR lady asks, "Would you be interested?" I said, "Of course" A couple of hours go by and... I get a call from my agency, Elizabeth says, "Hi, Michelle... what are you doing?" I reply, "Nothing" She says, "Well, they loved you and they would like to offer you the position." I swear to fuckin god that was the most BEAUTIFUL words I have ever heard! She asks, can you start monday? "Sure can!" The rest of the day was fuckin great... I had a smile on my face the whole day. Now, I can start new and learn from the past and take the knowledge that my previous employer gave me and apply them to something great! I am so fuckin excited! I thank GOD, my parents and everyone that supported me through this tough time! In the end patience is really a virtrue and it really does pay off! 0@#($#($*#)(*$)#(*$)(@#*!@_)(#$)(*#()$*&()#&%)(#*@ <----- SUBTITLED! (EXCITED!!!) PEACEEE!!! Current Mood: excited

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January 9th, 2006

12:55 am - Wow.... Wow... It's been a while since I've written anything in there... So much has happened in the past year or several months that I couldn't dare remember what to write about. All I know is that it's a new fuckin' year, I'm 21 and I no longer work at inQ! Thank Fuckin' GAWD! This year I am going to devote my time into making myself better and concentrate on what's good for me and to stop thinking about other people's needs. I can say that the past several months have been the worst fuckin time of my life. But... I'm still here... I said that to myself when the ball dropped in Time Square... "I'm still fuckin' here..." I've survived the past several months and now it's time to take control of my life. I realized there are bigger and better opportunities in life and so goes I've learned that I should take more risks than playing on the safe side. From this day forward it will be a better me inside and out... OPERATION "MAKE-OVER" Michelle here we go... Current Mood: refreshed

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September 3rd, 2005

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July 31st, 2005

11:42 pm - ASSHOLE! Ok... you fuckin son of a gun! I will show you I can do it! No more fuckin nice girl... It's WAR!!! Current Mood: aggravated

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July 29th, 2005

04:10 pm - Sometimes you just don't know... "Free Yourself" Baby you don't pay me no mind You act like you don't love me no more Maybe you need space or some time Your attitude is uppredictable and I don't want to make you unhappy If your not happy then your free to go on cuz I don't want you stayin around if I make you so Miserable [Chorus] If you don't want me then don't talk to me (if you don't want me then don't talk to me) Go ahead and free yourself (go ahead and free yourself) If you don't want me then don't talk to me (if you don't want me then don't talk to me) Go ahead to someone else (go ahead to someone else) If you don't want me then don't talk to me (if you don't want me then don't talk to me) Go ahead and free yourself (go ahead and free yourself) If you don't want me then don't talk to me (if you don't want me then don't talk to me) Go ahead to someone else (go ahead to someone else) [Bridge] Time again and again I tried I tried (baby don't you know I tried) but the love I had inside has Died has died (but the love I had inside) Wont you be a man if it's over and just admit that things aint the same instead of making me Think its all good Between us which ones the blame I took a lot of too much to handle until I can't take this game no more this love thing is full Of scandal so you welcome to walk [Chorus] [Bridge] I had to take it there I had to take it there because I'm tired oh yeah [Chorus] You play games if you don't want me don't talk to me Hey go ahead and free yourself Baby if you don't want me don't talk to me I'll be alright go ahead to someone else Yeah yeah..... I think this pretty much expresses how I feel as of this point. Enough said... Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Fantasia - Free Yourself

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July 17th, 2005

12:09 am - Wow...first time.. at home!! Wow... it's been a while since I wrote in this thing. Well, I have been meaning to write, but I just don't have the time. But today is the first night or weekend that I have actually had to myself... no cousins,no boyfriend, no distractions, but me, myself, my laptop, the television and a bunch of romantic comedy movies. Also, for the first time in my life, i actually feel content with my life... there are some cases that I feel stressed, but i think that my life is actually going pretty well. I took a summer break off of school... my hours at work have switched from working some fucked up hours, to being Monday-Friday and having weekends off. My boyfriend is best... we kinda hit that part in our relationship where we needed our space to be with by ourselves. It's funny how that happens. But when you break it down it's really just putting your cards on the table about what to fix and how to fix it... and sure enough everything just fell into place. It was the simple pleasures in life that he wanted to experience. In a relationship, it's a whole other world out there... you hardly get to see your friends and you suck yourself into a world where it only becomes YOU and your significant other as a "civilization" Then, when arguing, we don't pay attention to the simple things that we are trying to say. Honestly, all it was, was him wanting to hang out with his friends alot more than it just being US every freakin' weekend. I thought about it, and seriously, i asked myself, "when was the last time I have been home on the weekend?" Then, i realized that, that's it... i don't have much time with myself because I was always around him and he didnt have time for himself because he was always around me. Now, he's out and about doing his own thing, kicking with the boys or watever... and im at home relaxing... watchin stupid romantic movies! I slept ALL day today... except for a couple of hours where I ate and went out with my mom... BUt yup, im at home playing around with my laptop... and just chillin out and it feels great! :) It seriously gives me the chance to miss him and i do. He did the utmost cutest thing last night... or should i saw this morning... he calls at like 11:00pm Friday night and i guess he wanted to hang out, but I was too tired too.. but then, my phone rang at like a quarter to 2 in the morning and I was too sleep to answer it to so let i ring. Then today, i Kyle calls and was like, "hey I called you this morning" and i was like "yeah? and?" he said, check your missed calls list and check out what time I called you and i left you a voicemail! I was like, ok... so i check out my phone and he called me a "1:43am" Then i checked my voicemail and he was like, "hunny, i just wanted to say, hi and it's 1:43am and i wanted to tell you that I love and miss you! and have a good night" AWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! that so fuckin cute and sweet of him!! Then, i text me him saying that he was the fuckin cutest thing that walked this earth... then i realized that, thats all i wanted was for him to be spontaneous like that! and sure enough he listens.. took us a while to get things out in the open to figure out our relationship but now it's great! Well, at least theres some good things i write on here... LOL usually when i write on here im all pissed off... hahahaha Current Mood: happy

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April 19th, 2005

11:25 pm - HAHAHA... JUST AS I SUSPECTED! LOL You scored as The Notebook. You have strong, passionate love like the notebook! </td> The Notebook 75% Charlies Angels 67% A Cinderella Story 58% Mean Girls 50% Legally Blonde 33% What Chick Flick is just like Your Life? created with QuizFarm.com

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March 10th, 2005

08:40 am For everytime you had to go asleep alone. For everytime I tried to rush you off the phone. For everytime I said something to make you cry. Now that all is said and done, I can't deny. I'm so sorry for anything I might have done. And I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt the only one, And I'm sorry, the best laid plans sometimes fall through, For anything that I might've done, I apologize to you. For anything that I might've done, I apologize to you. For everytime I lied right to your face, And you knew it. For all the wasted time that we cannot replace. For everytime that a discussion turned into an argument, we'd fight. Hey, how I wish that I could have it back tonight. I'm so sorry for anything I might have done. And I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt the only one, And I'm sorry, the best laid plans sometimes fall through, For anything that I might've done, I apologize to you. For anything that I might've done, I apologize to you. To try and count your tears, would be like standing in the rain. The weather's been bad, for that I'll gladly take the blame. Now our two separate lives will never ever be the same, But I hope that you can forgive someday. I'm so sorry for anything I might have done. And I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt the only one, And I'm sorry, the best laid plans sometimes fall through, For anything that I might've done, I apologize to you. For anything that I might've done, I apologize to you. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Brian Mcknight- im sorry

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February 25th, 2005

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February 4th, 2005

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February 2nd, 2005

02:23 pm I am 42% Asshole/Bitch. I may think I am an asshole or a bitch, but the truth is I am a good person at heart. Yeah sure, I can have a mean streak in me, but most of the people I meet like me. Take the Asshole/Bitch Test @ FualiDotCom YAY! At least it speaks the truth... im a bitch when i really have to be one... it balances out! LOL :-)

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January 30th, 2005

08:36 pm Take the quiz: "What Disney Princess Are You?" Cinderella You clean, cook, and try to please your family. Dont worry the fairy godmum is on her way... YAY!! my favorite princess. Too bad the picture looks all fucked up though. So yeah that's my post for the day.

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January 22nd, 2005

05:18 pm - I think that was a sign... Well, here's the scoop. I was at work, not feeling so well and i went back and forth to the restroom to either vomit or shit. (yeah i know it's gross) Anyways, well, the last time i decided to go the restroom I borrowed one of the employees keys and when i came back... BANG! I hit the floor. I wasn't unconscious or anything I just felt fatigued and i dunno. So, I guess they called 911 and then i was rushed to the hospital... Just a little note, Riding in a ambulance is really weird. Anyways, so they check me in asked me a buncha question, ran all these tests. So, the first person that arrived was my brother, thankfully he was at moorpark, which was close to the hospital that they brought me too. Then, he called my mother, my mother called my grandmother, my grandmother started going nuts and then she picked up my aunt and they all met up at the hosipital. I was checked into the hospital @ 2:00pm and I thought, oh well, they are just going to run the test and tell me that i was stressed out and then i get to go home. WRONG! I was strapped into an IVY thing needles everywhere, had to get a cat scan and drink this idodine thing (this liquid thing that makes your body glow in the dark) they when they finally got back the results, they told me that I have UTI (urinary track infection) I guess it's common for women to have. So, yeah I was checked in @ 200pm and didnt get discharged until midnight. To top that all off-- I asked the nurse frequently to call the guy so he can work the TV. Yeah... the guy didnt decide to come until 2 hours before i was going to leave... when all he did was play with a lose wire... to make it work... DAMIT it could have done that! Anyways, so yeah im alright now. Im just catching up sleep and doing NOTHING this whole weekend. My mom is still worried about me. Which is normal. But I seriously, thank everyone that was there with me. My grandmother, god bless that woman, was calm through the whole situation and walked me through everything. I realized that I am truly blessed to have her in my life. The ironic thing about this whole situation was yesterday I was contemplating on whether or not to take my vacation early... or leave take it later so I have more hours. I sat and sat on my computer wondering on when I should fill out the dates on the this form. Sure, enough, I said. SCREW it... if I want to keep my sanity... I will take it now. It's only 40 hours and I have like 64 hours so I have MORE than enough to cover about 2 weeks and few days. So, I decide that I was going to be on vacation from 1/31 to 2/6. But, I don't return to work till the 8th. So yeah, thats something to look forward too. Since, I do not have any other plans to do on my vacation except SLEEP. But yeah i wish i couldve waited because I was planning on going on a trip with Kyle for a week or something... but we can always plan that out later. Anyways... To all of you guys that called and harrassed my brother or called and left a message to see how I am doing. I thank you so much. I love you guys! Current Mood: lazy

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January 20th, 2005

04:21 pm - I guess... bloods not thicker than water... Yeah... go figure... i have just hit rock bottom and figured out that I will not be able to happy. Well, just when you think things are forgiven and forgotten... they're not... and it sucks... it's all about money. Well, i figured this that no matter how hard you try... you never win. Well... let the venting begin. A month ago my brother brought something to my attention that I have been keeping a secret. For the past couple of years I have been handling his finances. There was nothing really much to it... but I offered. Yeah that was a mistake. Anyways, it all started when I made the worst mistake ever... and till this day i resent it. I was closer to my brother when he worked at his previous job. CALC... I kept my distance... I didn't talk to him about anything personal except the regular, "hey how you doing" Then, one day he came to me and said, "hey I wanna go back to school, which means i would have to quit CALC" I said, "ok what are you going to do?" His reply, "I dunno, i guess get a job that is closer and that would fit my schedule more" good plan. So, he applies for several jobs, at the mall mainly. Then told me, "Hey i might work @ pac sun" I said, "good... at least it fits your schedule better" Then, here's when the mistake comes in. I go to work and talk to Matt and asked if we were still hiring. He told me, "yes, we are" why? who do you recommend? I stated, "My brother... but he already got a job offer @ pac, but i know he would be tired more from work than school" Matt replied, "Well, if he's willing to work GY then sure bring him in for an interview" I came home, told my brother about it... convinced him to take the interview. He he did, and got the job that paid wayy more than 6.75 @ pac sun and being on your feet. Here @ inQ he was able to do anything he wanted. He chilled and worked only 5 minutes from home. Then on 12/10/04 - I bought a new car, my saturn. Knowing my brother being proud, I knew he deserved something new as well. So, what i do... i help him get his first new car... his s-10. He was soo happy and content that seeing him just saying "I have my TRUCK" made me happy. Then, 3/26/04 - I bought a new car again - my trailblazer. Again, my brother proud, I told him, hey you can get one too. So, I helped him. Then, a week after, Matt came to me and asked if he can promote my brother for supervisor GY. I told him Yes, because he would have a steady income and would be able to pay off his truck. So, he got promoted. inQ moved into a new office and that is when everything hit the roof. Ever since we have moved here we have been bickering with each other on and off. And this time, was just my last draw. He confronted me a month ago about some financial questions. I am not sure whether to think of it as him asking whether i was stealing from him or not, but that, up to this day, I feel like that is the case. I wasn't stealing, I kept a cushion for him. For example, after paying bills his allowance would be 400.00 I would take the extra 100 and kept it in another account so when he were to run out of his allowance and try to ask me for extra cash... I wouldn't be pulling money out of my account, it would be from the account that I kept that cushion. But i guess, explanation doesnt help when the person is already pissed. Pretty much the conversation that was taken place today pretty much clarified that he was thinking that way. It's the simple formula - I have no money... therefore I will investigate that there is some negative reason why I do not have money. And his first instinct is to ask me. In this case, it was about a particular credit card. He claims that he should not have a balance, when i told him that I clarified this on the day that you confronted me that you do have balance because that particular card was used to help our father during a financial crisis. Apprently, he couldn't remember that I told him that and blames himself because he claims that he has a short-term memory. Bottome-line was that he was upset that He didnt have money available for him to pay for school. I understand his pain. But he turned and suggested to have everything that had to deal with money, having it documented and signed. I never thought that he would do that... that he has that much distrust in me that he would go that route... but i caved in and told him sure. seriously, the first document i get from him to sign will be the day that i sign-away that he is no longer family to me. Pretty much after this conversation... my brother is already numb to me. And nothing but my co-worker... (ja... if he still is my co-worker) sorry that was pretty evil... but i cant help but feel hurt about this whole thing. I never asked him for anything, he needed a loan to go to school... I helped... he wanted to get a new car... i helped... I HELPED AND HELPED AND HELPED!!! But does anyone help me?!?! I'm sick of this shit. After this, no more drama, no more HURT! Karma will serve it's justice sooner or later. But after this, he's on his own. LITERALLY. I've had it trying to make everyone else happy but yet, I am the one that i ALWAYS UNHAPPY... I haven't take a vacation because why? I sacrified taking one because of my brother.... because he wants to take one blah blah blah... This time... he can kiss my ass for any opportunities...like his job, that could have easily been given to someone who deserves it more... but no.. i gave it to him because why??? BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER!!! Fuck this... i cried too much over this. The damage is done and i lost my best friend over money... who woulda thought money was of so much importance... when it was used to help out someone in need... my own father. Tomorrow, I will be a new PERSON! What goes around comes around! Current Mood: depressed

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January 17th, 2005

07:52 pm - Just when you think everything is alright... DAMMIT! Just when you think that everything is alright... something outta no where just happens. I hate it when it's always... "Nice people finish last" it sucks... but then those that should be condemned to hell... end up with the glory. Ok... here's what im talking about... Everything was going fine up until i got home. I noticed that something was wrong... My mom. My mom looked like she was either crying or had been crying for a long time. My instincts were that she was crying. But anyways... yep, I was right she was. And the reason why is because someone at work is pissing her off and things are going on that are beyond her control. When all she wanted was to help people out. She helps everyone and anyone that she can out and then the next thing you know... they stabs her in the back and take everything for granted and want more because they aren't satisfied with... just... something instead of something. Anyhow, she told me the whole story and i feel like... paralyzed... like i can do anything about it to make it all better. I feel so bad for her... she doesnt deserve this kinda treatment when she has done nothing but worked hard and helped others that needed it the most. She told me, "I guess i learned my lesson..." yeah... that you just cant trust ANYONE... especially when it comes to company politics and work. That's why when 2005 hit... i already excercised her advice. I arrive to work on time... i do my shit and then leave. I don't talk, i don't do anything that will stir up this and that... i just work. Because I am not about to have my job be on jeporady because someone wants more money or... want my position. Sometimes... you have to be a little selfish just to survive... and thats what I think i will be doing. Anyways... god... i promised myself i wasnt going to make this journal all about negative shit... but what did i do... ended doing that. Going back to routine... Michelle... STOP THE MADDENESSSSS!!! OK... im frustrated... and I hope that the person that is making my mother so UNHAPPY... fucken dies so i can shit on their grave... and GOD could send their ASS TO HELL!!! Current Mood: infuriated

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January 12th, 2005

06:06 pm - Wow... a change So yeah... 2005 things seem to be going well and i actually have something nice to write on my LJ. But anyways here's a brief update of what is going on in my life... not that anyone cares... but i guess ok... here i go... Well, christmas sucked ass because no one was here and no one really was in the christmas spirit. I'm praying so hard for my dad to stay healthy and fix watever he has to fix in order for him to get his life back together... My sister turned 3 on Sunday... but she acts like she just turned 16. (yeah she's a brat) but i still love her... it's just cute how she tries to act like she knows wats going on. But shes my little brat and i love her. Ummm... yeah I am finally getting both my cars outta my fuckn credit so i spend MORE money LOL... just kidding. But yeah, im kinda glad that my parents are taking over my cars so i can buy a new one... really i dont want one... but i feel bad for my step-dad because hes the one that sacrifices so that everyone will have a luxury. But now it's going to be his turn. He is taking over one of my cars... the one that i REALLY dont wanna give up because Kyle put so much money on there... that... i dunno... it's my baby! anyways... yeah hes taking over my truck... but yeah hes taking that over because most of his life he has done so much for me that he deserves it. Right now hes fuckken driving a POS kia sportage but yet manages to make like over 60gs a year... Ummm... ok... no... hes supposed to be driving like a mercedes... but no.. he would sacrifice him not driving a mercedes because he would want me to have a more reliable car. But thats what i appreciate about him. He helped me through alot when i was growing up and now that i am old enough to show him my apprecition... i wanted to sarcrifice something I love (my baby chevy - TRAILBLAZER) to him. But i still get the better end of the bargain... :-) Me a new car... JAH! rock on. but yeah anyways... yeah i think i have narrowed it down to getting a 2005 Jeep Grand Cherokee... i know i know... EWWWW for those that like IMPORTS and those RICE-ROCKETS... sooo eeessscrrreeww you! Anyways.. yeah thats what i have narrowed it down to.. NO corrvette for me... i realized that having a two seat wouldnt be that fun, because even though it's a BOMB looking car.. i wouldnt be able to take my friends or watever... even though i cant count how many real friend i actually kick it with and hang out with... is like 4 people... like cassie, Julie and occassionally... on a blue moon... kristina and Liz. But yeah, i figured that with a two seaters, if i wanted to go out with buncha friends... they would have to drive... and sure thats fine... i save gas and shit... but i realized that i am one of those people that prefer to drive because i get dizzy when other people do... i dunno thats just me. Anywho... im going to test drive it somehere in the middle of next month... and see if i like it... then if i dont like the way that it drives... it's back to the drawing board. Anyways... thats it for now... HAPPY FUCKEN NEW YEAR! and... GOOD NIGHT! Current Mood: happy Current Music: Me Typing - Michelle Roa :-)

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December 13th, 2004

10:21 pm - GOD THIS SUCKS! How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break My Heart So Bad? How Could The One Who Made Me Happy, Make Me Feel So Sad? Wont Somebody Tell Me? So I Can Understand. If You Love Me, How Could You Hurt Me Like That? How Could The One I Gave My World To, Throw My World Away? How Could The One Who Said I Love You, Say The Things You Say? How Could The One I Was So True Too, Just Tell Me Lies? How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break This Heart Of Mine? Tell Me........ How Could You Be So Cold To Me? When I Gave You Everything. All My Love, All I Had Inside. How Could you Just Walk Out The Door? How Could You Not Love Me Anymore? I Thought We Had Forever. I Cant Understand. How Could The One I Shared My Dreams With, Take My Dreams From me? How Could The Love That Brought Such Pleasure, Bring Such Misery? Wont Somebody Tell Me? Somebody Tell Me Please. If You Love Me, How Could You Do That To Me? Tell Me........ How Could you Just Walk Out The Door? How Could You Not Love Me Anymore? I Thought We Had Forever. I Cant Understand. *How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break My Heart So Bad? How Could The One Who Made Me Happy, Make Me Feel So Sad? Wont Somebody Tell Me? So I Can Understand. If You Love Me, How Could You Hurt Me Like That?* How Could The One I Gave My World To, Throw My World Away? How Could The One Who Said I Love You, Say The Things You Say? How Could The One I Was So True Too Just Tell Me Lies? *How Could The One I Gave My Heart To..... How Could The One I Gave My Heart To.... How Could The One I Gave My Heart To Break This Heart of Mine? Tell Me........ *** The moment that I let my past go... this happens... yeah... additional 8347298347 years to let this heal *** Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Usher - Let it burn

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December 1st, 2004

05:59 pm - This bares repeating... Ok... so, I'm here at work... obviously... working... and then i went into Sam's (my boss's) office to tell me my case about the BEAST of inQ. I told him that i am contemplating on leaving it is because of HER! But anyways, in the mist of all that happening... Hannah... a COW from texas.. stomps the floor and walks into Sam's office and says, "hey, ummm... Michelle, I know you're not on the distribution list, but you are welcome to come to this meeting if you want" So, totally, curious, i turned to my boss and gave him this weird look, the look like "Ummm... why does this affect me?" Then he said, "My business intuition is that Nober is DONE!" and im like "NOoo... Fucken way?" So, he said, watch. Then... we walk into this board room filled with upper management that are over-dressed for the joyus 30 minute conversation and then bomb hits. "Hi, i am dennis one of the board of directors for inQ... blah blah blah" We wanted to let you know that "Nober has resigned his position as CEO and we have appointed Bernard blah blah blah.." So, my expression not being so surprised, all of sudden the room just lights up with Joy. Come to think of it, I never really understood why they didn't like him... I mean i knew that he had to lay off the prozack, but still i thought he was a down-right dude. Anyways, the point is, is that i found out from an outside source that the BITCH of inQ is contemplating on leaving as well.... well... she better leave before we fire her LOL. But you know that I mean. Anyways... Yeah... that's my day... Current Mood: amused

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November 15th, 2004

12:57 am - OK... enough is enough... So, yeah I worked 13 days straight... because I dunno, my life SUCKS! Just kidding, well, the core reason why I worked 13 days is because AHEM! people either do not know how to get shit done... or they are just plain stupid. But since this is my career of choice ... I guess I will come across people like that. But anyways, yeah I am finally going to see Kyle tomorrow. After I dunno, I totally lost count but i think it's like a month since I have not seen him because I have been so busy at work. This past month I had to blow off every single date that we have scheduled. But I am so happy that he has been understanding about everything. This past month I have been doing alot of thinking within our relationship and I came to the conclusion that when I would see him ever so often we would get into so many fights but during this period that I haven't been able to see him... for the record... NOT MY CHOICE! But I have thought alot about us and i guess it's true... "absence makes the heart grow fonder!" I know it's weird but, even though I haven't been able to obtain a five minute conversation with him I felt... that somehow, some way... he found some way to get a hold of me. One example, I was at work one day... going out of my mind like usual, and I get a call from an "unknown" number and oddly I didn't recongnize the voice (because I was so busy) and usually the voices I hear is either, my boss, or the employees. And then, i hear "Hey, Butt-head, do you know I miss you so much?" I was like... OMG! hey! and it HIT me... "WOW! I haven't spoken to him in a while!" and it made me realize that i miss him. Then occasionally i would talk to him online, but tomorrow or actually today i will be able to see him after long days at work and working 13 days straight... yeah i know...pure insanity. Anyways... as much as we fight... absence always brings us back to the golden days... Kyle, you will ALWAYS be my boo! There's always that one person that will always have your heart You never see it coming cause you're blinded from the start Know that you're that one for me, it's clear for everyone to see Ooh baby, you will always be my boo I don't know about y'all but I know about us and uhh it's the only way we know how to rock (repeat) Do you remember girl, who was he one who gave you your first kiss Cause I remember girl who was the one who said put your lips like this Even before all the fame and people screaming your name Girl I was there and you were my baby It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo) Now another brothers' taken over but its' still in your eyes (my boo) Even though we use to argue it's alright (it's alright girl, that's okay) And if we haven't seen each other in a while, but you will always be my boo Now if you loved when we were younger you were mine And when I see from time to time I still feel like, (that's my baby) And if I see you no matter how I try to hide (I can't hide it) And even though there's another man who's in my life, you will always be my boo Yes I remember boy, cause after we kissed I could only think about your lips Yes I remember boy, the moment I knew you were the one I could spend my life with Even before all the fame and people screaming your name I was there and you were my baby I don't know about y'all but I know about us and uhh it's the only way we know how to rock (repeat) Current Mood: pleased Current Music: Usher ft alicia keys - my boo

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October 25th, 2004

07:04 pm - GOD! I hate this job NOW! I don’t know what it is… but lately… I have just been numb. Ever since I turned 20 I’ve been just a monster. It’s affecting my relationships with my family, friends, and most of all Kyle. I have come down to the conclusion that it’s all because of WORK! And this one particular person that just bothers’s me so much that when I see her I seriously find a new way to KILL HER! Ok… let me bitch be known that her name is Esther. Ok… it started off just fine… I mean, we got along, I even trained her. Then, as soon as she got comfortable… BAM! She’s been dropping the bomb on whole department and now, working at inQ has just been a menace to my life. I used to love working there. The environment made me happy, my life was settled and my career was just about to take-off. Then Matt, his unknowledgeable hiring skills decide to hire the “cancer” to the working environment. Every since she came aboard, she’s supposed to be projected as help to Jonas and Myke… instead we wind up doing more work, with less pay for the MORE work that she piled up on us and cleaning up the dirty work. Now, word is out that the veterans that have been there for about as long as I have, have been complaining about her as well. But today we had a meeting with David and he just basically told us to just deal with it… because Esther has done nothing wrong but flooded our desk with stupid baby high school rumors on why she isn’t a good supervisor and why every hates her. But then she makes it look like she’s the victim. Ok… buddy you’re new… you have to earn people’s respect not… DEMAND THEM.. Anyways, I can go on and on about this whole stupid story but I just cant…. Write about it anymore because it make me wanna throw my computer against the wall and quit my job and makes depressed. SOON… I will be outta inQ and it can kiss my ass!!!! Current Mood: annoyed

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